“Not when truth is dirty, but when it is shallow, does the enlightened man dislike to wade into its waters.”
I’m just never going to be light, fluffy and superficial enough to be one of the “popular” people in any group I choose to participate in. I’ll make intense friendships with people whom I feel a genuine connectedness with, but talk of weather, sports, politics, or celebrity gossip just leave me bored and sort of uncomfortable.
This isn’t a flaw in my personality – it’s a flaw in how humanity currently functions, and unfortunately it’s one of the aspects of my personality which makes me both unable and unwilling to “fit in”. I’m not going to pretend that the dead elephant in the room is actually a sofa. I’m working on ways to improve this characteristic to make myself a little more comfortable, without abandoning this part of who I am, just like I’m working on improving and integrating other aspects of my personality which don’t quite function as effectively as I’d like them to.
Sometimes I wish I was different because being who I am is often painful, lonely and uncomfortable, but most of the time I know that part of my mission is to love humanity, and part of my mission is to shine a light on the darker aspects of it, love those aspects and help begin healing them.