Focus on Love.

Always the right answer

Always the right answer

Today I finally got my letter approving my funding for school, so starting early next month I’ll be starting my classes. It’s a little scary starting school again, especially now that I’m in my 40s, but I’m also really excited and happy about making this fresh new start.  I’m still pretty darn busy with work and enjoying living my life (and being all giddy and pleased with my new relationship) and really need to remind myself to take the time needed to update here more frequently as this blog is first and foremost a tool to help keep me focused and centered.

I purchased an elliptical recently, and am really enjoying fiddling around with it between bike rides and shifts at work. I figure keeping busy with the elliptical will really help me fend off my Seasonal Affective Disorder this next winter as exorcise really does make me feel great, and not biking certainly effects my mood in the winder.

I’m having some serious allergy issues and will begin receiving testing for various food sensitivities on the 15th. I’m quite certain that it will come back as my having celiac disease  as I do have a genetic predisposition to it and I’ve always sort of angrily suspected that it would catch up one day. I’m not overly stressed about it, although I do admit that I will miss my gluten if/when I need to give it up.

I’m still working quite determinedly at figuring out what was most meaningful to my parents, and what the Universe was trying to teach me through my relationships with them. I do think that this part of the Celestine Prophecy has really been helping me to release a lot of my pent up frustration with how broken our family was and that this is helping me to find meaning and value in all that I experienced. I do believe that I have a mission on this planet, and that examining these things will help me to determine what it is. Currently I’m just focused on building a good foundation of stability for myself, so that I am in a position to follow my heart once I figure out where it’s heading.  I’m not wracking my brains over this, but I am enjoying thinking about my life journey from this new perspective. I have made many breakthroughs and am beginning to really gain a sense of direction.

Often when I have the least to say, I have the biggest changes occurring.

Walk in Beauty.


About couleewind

I'm a 41 year old woman from a small city in Alberta Canada. I am whimsical and bitter-sweet and am essentially a marshmallow in a porcupine suit. I collect Pez dispensers and books and I love to talk, although I do tend to be fairly introspective. The sort of content which you will find here will vary depending on the day, my mood and what’s going on in my world or of interest to me. I mainly blog as method of reflecting on my day and on my life at the time of the post. I have a history of struggling with social anxiety and depression, as well as type two diabetes, and through living a plant-based, wholistically centered life I've made great strides in these areas. This blog is meant to reflect where I'm at in my life, and how I'm moving toward creating the life I see myself having in my dreams. I will often discuss, whole foods, meditation, personal growth and my day to day struggles and victories. I am also a highschool drop out who is returning to school at age 42, and a person who lives on a very tight fixed income currently, this will also be reflected in my blog.

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